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yoyo ppl !~ today waas great . in school , ntg much happened . blablabla . afta school , went hme with bby . sent her hme actually . hmm . dunno la . nowadays like so hard for me to even touch her . miss holding her in my arms . i miss it hun ;( well . forget boud it . after sending her hme , went to pod . slack . smoke . joke ard with each other . HAHA ! kekek uh shahir pipit nie . huahuahua . then went hme . slept awhile . then got up and got ready for tuition . went for tuition . dad fetched me after tuition . went for some light supper with him . reached hme ard 11.30 . thought of going down awile . but was too lazy . so yea . to whoever yg terase : tiada gunaku merayu , mengharapkan kasihmuuuu
yup . its not worth it . nytes cheebyees . (:

Labels: one last kiss . one last hug .

heyhey ppl ! well , today was fun actually . hmm . ntg happened in school . not much to elaborate anws . uhm . after school , sent bby hme . dunno wads wrong uh with us . i feel deep down in my heart that we`re losing the love . haix . pliz hun . prove me wrong . love me the way i love u . pliz ? when i reached hme , i asked my maid to pack2 my barang2 bola . lazy to do it . got maid for wad rite ? haha . when i was changing , btol2 freda called . she wanted to slack with me . hmm . wth rite ? its only freda . and she will only talk aboud zul i guess . bby wont mind . she understands . hee . i asked her to wait for me under my block at the staircase . she waited damn long there sia . i purposely made her wait . AHAHAAHA! sorry fredaa , but u asked for it . :P

went to pod with her after that . hmm . slacked there . awhile later, freda wanted to go home . so i accompanied her to the bus stop . while walking , she wanted me to listen her sing . i thought her voice was not gonna be nice . but when she sang , omg . damn nice sia . i was like WOW-ed by her effing nice voice . u got a good voice there freda . go join anugerah . ~X) after i sent her to the bus stop , i went back to pod . and this fahrul mepek sia . he was beside me and we were like smsing each other . mepek ah lu fahrul ! haha . anws , i left for training after that . hmm . quite tough but can la .

this sunday against NFA or wad i heard . die . they damn good . but geylang`s better . i think . teehee ~ after training , this rahim go use my deodorant until left half sia . motherfucker btol . get u next tyme . on the next training . hmm . after that , slacked while with naqib , rahman and husaini . then naqib and husaini fite . ahahaa . rabak2 . at first , they were fooling around . then it got serious and husaini got injured badly i guess . hmm . same club also wanna fite . i keep quiet doent mean im scared of you okay . i thought u guys were playing around . hmm . nehminds .

after that went to pondok . played takraw . haha . just now i suddenly played like khalid(bapak syabil) sia . hmm . then went hme . reached hme quite late . mum nvr scolded or wad . just ignored . so yea . do wad u guys wanna do . ignore me . wdv . i dun give a shit yea . but wad i know is , i dint do it . and everbody thats been telling you guys are lying or ... they`re just making up stories bcoz they hate me . well , wdv it is . im staying truthful to myself . i dint do it . i dint do it . i dint do it . believe me . hmph . kayda ppl . wanna sleep . hmm . JAIHUUUUUUUUU . HAHA ! iman`s one uh . dnt steal . nites . tc ppl . if ure reading hun . just so u know , i love u . oh so very much yea . (:
once again , JJJJJAAAAAIIIIIHHHHUUUUUUUUU

Labels: hit me bby one more time

hey ppl . today was okay i guess . ntg spectacular happened . haix . afta school , bought ciggs with achap . then went to cca . blablabla . after cca , played soccer while waiting for bby . scored dunno like 3 goals ? 2 i think . went hme with bby after that . cant do anything . came hme . and my parents acted like i was a nobody . nvr offered me food . nvr asked if i was hungry or wad . nothing . like i was a complete stranger . u guys dont care ? i have not eaten since morning sia . my stomach was going thru hell . but hey , im nobody rite ? ive jus been feeling weak and cold inside . u guys wanna know whye they`re acting like this to me ? bcoz they believed other what other ppl told them about me . i know those ppl . the fucking neighbours . my own fucking cuzzins . watch out ppl . im fucking tahan-ing this shit okay . when i cant take it no more , i will fucking go crazy . i will go to you guys with my fucking parang and i will let u feel how im feeling now . i will fucking cut u up in pieces . i swear on that . u guys may think im 'mcm paham' or wad . just wait and see . keep reading the newspapers . never know , one of this days my face will appear . the headline , " boy , 15 , goes crazy with a parang and cuts more than 15 ppl " . watch it ppl . just wait for it . it will come . i swear on everything i have on that . peace fuckers .

Labels: mummy...

yooyoo ppl . well , today and yesterday was okay . uh . shaikh kene pukul ngn budak 121 . sedihh boi .
hah . yesterday slacked until ard 5++ ehh ? aniways , went hme after that . i dun need to tell u guys what i do at hme olryte . i will only sleep , eat , use comp or play with my brother when im at hme . so its quite a bore to tell u guys what i do at hme .

hmm . today , ntg much happened at school uh . alot uh nahar talk . half an hour sia he talk2 to me . wah . but it was not a waste of tyme . it was an eye-opener , seriously . yeah . now im like seriously into studying .hah . im new to studying frequently .last tyme , only when exam uh i will study . now its like totally diff . ahahah !

bby and me doing olryte i guess . hmm . im not important ? okay2 . i dun wanna talk too much about bby yea . but we`re doing okay la . thats good . hmm . okok . da la ppl . ntg much to write about . nites . tc . and one more thing uh . now to me , frends are important sia . serious2 . when im down or wad and go to school , there will always be those guys in my class to cheer me up . lan with his stupid jokes . achap with his funny expressions and step bodo nye perangai . afiq with his irritating-ness and amir with his stupid-ness . haha . an not forgetting deena and deeyaaanaa . hmm . thx for being good listeners yea . love u all . HAHAHA! kaykay . once again , nites .

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yoyo ppl ~ well , today was okay . went to pasir ris for madrasah . hmm . wanted to meet bby after madrasah , but she dint want . dunnoe whye . she wanted to go out with her cuzzins . wdv . i slacked with one guy with the same name as me . haha ! nadhir also . but his name is spelled ' NEDEER' . kay lame shit . after awhile , i left . then as i was otw home , shahir pipit called and asked me if i wanna go tamp 1 with the teck whyes , mad , him and uzay . as i didnt have anithing on , i tagged along uh . hmm . went to mad`s hse first . slack2 . smoke2 . waited for pipit and uzay to come . cb sia . come so late .

then headed to tamp 1 . me and uzay go first . dunnoe la . temankan uzay go to his makcik`s hse first to send dunno wad also . then we walked to tamp 1 . walao ehh . so many chicks sia . while walking oredi sooo many chicks . walao . but i nvr see . i step blind only when i see chicks . im att wad :D
ahahah . dunno wad`s wrong with bby . i see we`re drifting further and further apart. u like that dont you ? hmm . dun worry . i`ll fix it smehow yeah . i always do . muahahah . then walk2 somemore . then met the rest at century square first b4 going tamp 1 . then we all saw this one girl . ina or wad . she was the pondok`s 'pelacor' last tyme . now , i hope shes changed . hmm .

then walk into this shop , messy or wad uh the name . wah cb . the clothes there . SO TEMPTING SIA ! like wanna take and run . dun worry . ive picked this one shirt . im gonna buy it asap . its pink and white . nice shit . hahah . then went ard somemore . the rest wanted to look ard for chicks . well , my eyes were sharp . there were chicks everywhere i looked . budak keCHICKS and makCHICKS of course . haha . i saw a few pretty ones . some smiled at me ya know ! hahaha . but i tahan la . im att and lovin it baybeyyh . and oh yeah . pok gi tindek idung . LAGI macam bapok . ahaha . sorry but its true bil .

after while , got bored . so we all proceed go tp . sat down . slack2 . smoke2 . shake2 . kacau2 bangla and some chicks . -.- . everything we do uh , cnfrm got smtng to do with chicks . effing irritating sia . haix . then ard 8 + like that went hme . i wanted to go hme first . then the rest also nak jalan . so we jalan2 together uh .

hmm . bbyyyyyyyyyyyyyy . whats up with us sei ? whye we like this uh ? hmm . i guess something`s wrong . with both of us . tomorrow . we gonna talk it out oryte . we GOTTA talk it out . hmm .
okay ppl . thats all . need to chao . well, thats how i spent my sunday yea . tc . nites .

Labels: is it true ? all good things must come to an end ?

fuck today . fuck . today is supposed to be one of the best days of my life . that was what i tought . well , i thought wrong . hmm. like wtf rite ? over a stupid thing we fite . and now what ? u block me frm ure blog . hmph . niwaes , today was wandonia`s birthday . happy birthday bro . present lu nnti2 uh bile gua ade duit . haa ! . his gerl was sweet . she bought for him , i dunno wad la . wish my gerl was liddat . hmm . but well , shes not . seriously . i gotta admit . imah is really swit . so much uh for my one year . well , its no big deal . there`s always next year . haix . if there is uh . ure acting weird . ure acting like everything ure not . or are u really like that ? haix . dunnoe la nat .

this past few days have been fucking cbai sia . like i think god hate me sia . serious2 . me and bby non-stop action pack fighting . me and my parents also like mission impossible like that , always fighting . dunno why uh . i was thinking boud running away on wednesday but takde org ton . then yesterday wanted to run away also but remembered that today is my one year . haix . motherfucker sia . bby , u love me rite ? u do . i guess . but ure not ready to commit . ure not ready to make sacrifices . monday . we`ll have a talk . if the talk does`nt work out then ... yea . u geddit .

hmm . other than fighting with the people i love , training for geylang is damn tough sia . haha . nvm . i can cope . i hope . wanna concentrate on soccer . my mind is always thinking boud bby sia . about tasha . dunno wad to do . even when i kick the ball . i`ll say bby`s name silently and suprisingly , the ball wud go into the net . three times i said bby`s name . three times it went in . hah . well , i dunno la .

da ppl . wanna sleep uh . heart pain . leg pain . hand pain . chest and stomach pain . haix . but the most painful of all is of course , my heart . my leg , hand , chest and stomach can all heal . but can my heart be healed ? can it bby ? u fix it yea . ure the only doctor that can fix my broken heart hunney . put it back into one piece . make me feel happy like i was, back when i dint need to wear underwear as a baby . pliz hunney ?

okay . nites ppl . thx for wasting ure time on my blog yea . alermak . si shahir pipit nie da start swit2 plak kat block depan . mcm burung pipit btol uh si deknie . hmm . buat bodo uh ! ahahah !

Labels: shittest day of my life

one year ? hah . yea bby . happy one year . i dunnoe whye . im not feeling happy . the dream nat ... the dream . my mind`s racing . i dun wanna jump to conclussions . but i know her too damn well . haix . so bby , this is how its gonna be huh ? haix . painful . but yea . ure happy . thats important . how long we are together does not matter if we`re not happy . ure hiding things from me bby . things i SHOULD know . how wud u feel if i were to do that ? sad rite ? wont trust me rite ? same how im feeling . ive had a bad day . u dint bother to ask . how does that make me feel ? better ? haix . u acting like last tyme . during the december hols . when u dint layan me for like 1-2 mnths . i dun wan that to happen again . u promised . but if this dream u had is affecting u , hmm . do smtng about it . haix . ure life yea . im just apart of it . hmm . wait wait . am i nat ? am i apart of it ? haix . dunno nat . i just cant think properly nat . hmm . the only highlight of today was that i scored goals . . haix . tomorrow ? we`ll see . if ure reading happy one year yea . hmm . just be happy .

Labels: one year

jus fin reading bby`s blog . i dunnoe wad to say . im speechless now . i was effing angry at how bby treated me this past few days . like im nothing . like she always gives me this fucked up face . i was fucking pissed off . i came home only and started shouting at my maid and everybodyelse at home . i was seriously a mad mad on loose . haix . then when i read bby`s blog , all that anger vanished . disappeared . just like that . instead i felt cold , very cold and weak , very weak inside of me . just felt like .. dunno ? bursting up in tears . haix . dunno . expressionless i guess . but i dint do nothing bby girl . u wanted us to be like this . yupyup . if u dint want us to , u can change . i mean , could . (:
nvm . i will wait for a few days . if i can still tahan , i wait some more . if not , then i really have to think . if u have feelings for another guy , then whye we`re still here right ? together ? haix . i dunno nat . im just guessing all this . i dunno if its true . but im getting all the vibes that its true . i hope im wrong . i love u la nat . all the sacrifices i made , all that for wad ? for who ? u rite . u still dont see uh? u go see uh tomorrow . in ure class . hmms . karma bby . its bad shit mayn . one day, wdv u did to me , will happen to you . it will kick ure ass like a ton of bricks . im not praying for that to happen . i dunt want it to happen . too much for u to handle . . im just wandering whye cant i be happy . takper. u wud`nt wanna hear me aniwaes .monday u wanna meet syamil ? then me ? out one year outing ? u forgot ? guess soo . haix . nvm .

i will love u no matter wad hun .
im just writing wad im feeling now .
sorry sorry sorry

Labels: shitto shitto shitto

YOYO PPL ~ kay . since the last time i blogged , things have been quite okay . happy with bby . hope we`ll always be happy yea . hmm . ntg much has happened . during school hours , its a bore but i learned well . hah . suddenly my mind like spongebob squarepants like that sia . can absorb so many things . haha .

ntg much to write about .haix . just now , temankan bby go library all that . then send her home . after sending her home , saw her neighbour . this one fat guy uh . he`s okay . there was this one guy sitting beside him , i remembered him . he was a guy that wanted to find fault with me once . i ignored him that time . but just now , i seriously cannot take it sia when saw his face . like wanna whack only . i was alone . he was with another 4-5 guys . but so wad ? just wanted to shame him in front of all his friends . but i didnt . i light up my cigg and walked towards them . my last stick sia ! hmm . then i walk in front of them uh . i just stared at the idiot who wanted to find fault with me and started my fanatic-ness . HAHA ! okay . sounds soo matrep . hmm . then suddenly . the fat neighbour of tasha said , " dok , ade rokok ? " then i said , " tinggal nie jek urh " , i wanted to walk away but coulnt . dunnow whye . felt pity for them. i let them smoke each 3 puffs . while they were smoking , shahir pipit called .
pipit : Pok! amaciam ? kaw kat mane ?
me: baek . kat bawah blok mataey aku . asl ?
pipit: jmper aku uh , aku ade suprise untuk kaw .
me: okok . kat ner ?
pipit: pod ! bye !
TOOOOOOOOOT~
that idiot nvr wait for me to say anithink and just letak .i took back my ciggarate . and they were all like , thanks eh . i said okok . and fucked off outta there . and met pipit , at POD . hmm . guess wads the suprise ? he got one stick and wanted to rolling with me . like wtf . call me like got big suprise like that . check2 sebat rkk jek . haiyoo . kekek uh lu bro . HAHA . then slack some more until ard 8.? 8.30 ? then went hme . mum and nonok da bising marh . so go home . see , a good son and an even better boifren . you guys can achieve that ? naahhh . dnt think so . HAHA . hmm . i noticed a change in myself . i just cant bring back the old fanatic elnino . i tried to just now , but i just cant . now, like i think twice sia before doing anithink fanatic . scared ? hell no . dnt think so . mayb i matured or wad ? hahh . seriously . last tyme , klau nk fanatic , fanatic jek . klau nak gado , gado jek . last tyme like everything ksiao uh . now , like everything`s completely changed . wow . i thought i was holding back the old fanatic me . but i was not holding it back , there was never a fanatic me . it was just me last tyme . its not fanatic or wad . thats just the way i walk . thats just the way i handled things . thru fites . i was brought up from small liddat . u ppl try telling my dad uh thats hes fanatic . see wad u get in return . from a kid . i was thought never to lose . i was thought how to be tough . blablabla . but now , its completely changed . everything sia . hmms . kay enuf said . wanna sleep yea . hmm . k bye ppl . thanks for wasting a moment of ure life reading my blog . ~(:

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Yoyo ppls ~ sorry for not posting lately . been busy . with stuffs . with her . hahaha . i know u guys miss me rite ? well , this week was fyyne i guess . cant really remember wad has happened . but i remember a couple of things . like , i got picked for the japan trip bcoz i did quite well for my exams ! wooohooo ~ japan oh japan . wait for me . el nino will be coming soon . haha ! THE CHICKS IN JAPAN . thats my aim . sorry bby . just wanna make frens . heehh . KACHING . hmms . im doing pretty well in my studies . i was`nt the only one noticing it ya know . mr nahar and other teachers also have noticed it . yupyup . with my parents and bby`s guidance , i can get thru anithink yea . hmm . me and bby`s doing well . haha ! last friday , 3rd april . i sent bby all the way to bukit gombak there u know . heh . i sent her bcoz i dint want her to get lonely in the train . see how good a boifren am i . hehh !

A few days ago , went to uncle matt`s office . planned to bring bby along . but she cancelled at the last moment . hmm . uncle matt was damn pissed off . i had told him that bby wud b coming . he even bought extra food for her . haha . tkpe2. theres always next tyme . end up , i kene cekik bby`s portion of the food . walao eh . nbcb . full like nabil`s stomach sia ! he talked alot too . we talked about my dad . about his gangster life . about his personal life . everything . haix . i miss him redi liao ! nehmindds . next week uh uncle matt . we meet again . his wife is expecting . and hopefully its a boy . haah . matt junior . sure gonna be a strong little bby . hmm . went hme ard 10 liddat . he gave me ard $10 for taxi money . it was late and he dint want me to go home by bus . in the end . i took the bus and saved the 10 bucks he gave me ! ahahaha ! me and bby`s one year coming up . i know just the thing . on the day , i will put my bed nicely . on the air-con in my room . wait for it to get cold , then invite bby over to my house . haha ! when bby comes , i will invite her to my room . and after that , no need to elaborate la ! korang phm2 jek uh ! lepas tuh , elnino junior plak kwa ! haha . 9 mnths later ! jeng jeng jeng ! k da . mepek .

haha . and yeah . i went for a geylang trial and i got in sei ! geylang under-16 . COE ? i think . ahah . need to cut down the 'bad' habbit . geylang the fitness training rabak siol ! ahaha . niwaes , tomorrow schooling . and it`s gettin late . nites idiots reading my blog ! and bby , if ure reading , ure not an idiot . heh . ~(:

Labels: one whole fucking week

Today was fun . my school had sports day today . it was held at the bedok stadium . haha . bby ran . she came in third . i also ran . boys senior 800 metres . i came in first . ahaha ! impressive huh ? KACHING . kay fake . =.=" . anws , after that , went to tamp mall with bby , rafiqah ? or wdv her name is and one of her chinese fren . met syamil there . and blablabla . at every turn , this syamil wud go . " awwwh . hot guys . HOT GUYS ! " . she is the worst jakon of all the jakon people sia ! ahaha ! seriously . i was fucked up about it . one thing bcoz it was irritating . and bcoz she also exclaimed to bby abt it . and bby also wud look . like how can rite ? im rite beside u and u can do that . and even at one point . bby said . "alamak , nadhir ade uh ." it really my stomach twitch and just felt like unleashing all my anger at someone . was waiting . but there were no mat reps or ah bengs ard to let me vent out my anger on them . so yea . just kept quiet . walked alone . like how cud u say that nat ? like .. haiya . dnt wanna say anithink . i smtimes just wish i cud just tell you how im feeling . but u wnt understand . like im still thinking . how can u say that rite ? " alamak , nadhir ade uh " . i will nvr forget how u said it . i will nvr forget that sentence kay . its like u dint even appreciate my company or wad . its lyke u hated me for being there with u . it saddens me everytime i think about what happened just now and what u said . its like ... haix . nvm . and u syamil . i just hate it everytime ure out with me and tasha . like .. u must understand uh sia that now shes att . like i dunno uh . just fucked up abt everything uh . then we proceeded back to 33 . bby brought that syamil home . i slacked a while . then went home . i had tuition . as i was packing my bag . i found bby`s underpants in my bag . oh , how disgusting and yet horny i began to feel . AHAHAHA . then called bby . went over to her hse . haha ! gave her back the underpants and she invited me in . i went into her room . as expected , syamil was there . haha ! then bby sat on my lap while we watch syamil play the comp . ha ha . me and bby then did some stuffs . ahah . private stuffs . that only me and bby knows wad . correct not bby ? KACHING . after that i proceeded to my tuition . walao . end so late . afta tuition went hme . and just now , somebody called . i was suprised to hear ure voice again afta so long . i jst could`nt believe my ears when u told me who u were . the person is X k . she called me after so long of not cntcting . i dint know it was her . we started talking for awhile . about the past . our past . then it hit me like a ton of bricks ! its not the same how i talk to bby . this X person , kept on dwelling about the past . i guess shes still living the dark shadows of her past . yea it was fun remembering the past . but my heart is only for one girl . i dun not wanna be with anybodyelse except this special girl , my bby , my one and only tasha . forget boud us . forget boud me like how ive forgotten boud u kay X . yes , u were once special in my life . but now , theres a new girl in town . her name is nurul natasha . my eyes only for her . my smile only for her . my breathe only for her . i love her . face it . im her`s . shes mine . and people ! SYAMIL IS A GIRL OKAY ! NOT A GUY ! nites to cheebyes reading my blog ~

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