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Friday, July 10, 2009
well , today had wsch as per normal . planned to go gym with achap . but last minute cancelled bcz i felt like going out with bby . sorry achap xD . instead of going to the gym , me and bby headed to simpang to eat . AHA . met syamil there also . i paitaw achap as i really missed going out with bby . aww . i savour very moment jus now and jus hoping it was not the last time we wud be going out together . haixx . we`re still fighting . but yeah . when we meet , we act as though like ntg hapeened . cool pe . after we ate . we went to the bus stop to take number 9 back to afghan . tasha talked to syamil abt us . i heard abit . but that was enuf to hurt me . just a few sentences but it hurt me deeply . so i dint bother to hear the rest . i did my own stuff . boarded the bus and sat beside tasha while syamil sat behind us and they were still taking . i was listening to my mp3 . i blasted it . so i wudnt hear their convo . but while changing songs , i heard her saw smtng which changed hurt me even more deeply . dint wanna get even more hurt , so i shifted to another seat . i respected her . i dint wanna hear anithink bcs i guess she dint want me to . so yea . got off the bus at afghan and i was still boiling inside . but i dint wanna show it nor do anithink boud it bcs i just wanted to have fun with her . be it for the last time or be it forever but i wanted to spend some quality time with her . went to POD after that . she went into the toilet while i waited outside . talk2 ngn anak33 jap then me syamil and tasha went off to daerah her hse there to slack . otw there . i was still angry . but while walking along the pavement , i just wanted to feel relaxed . so i held her hand . whee . after that , all the anger vanished , like a tsunami came and whiped it all away . i held her hands dint care whether ppl wer looking . i saw some girls along the way . aha . my primary sch frens and they were like shocked to see me . but i pretended not to notice them . malas . then went and settled down at bawah uzair`s block . sit2 then syamil wanted to talk to me . about tasha . -.- . i just wanted to sit down and have some time with tasha . but noooo , syamil must come and spoil it . AHA . no la syamil . u did the right thing . thanks . talked to syamil . she kept pestering me to talk to tasha but i dint want to . i wanted her to have her own time first . tasha wasnt listening to us . or so i thought . she was listening to my mp3 . then i said that i partly dint wanna talk to tasha about our misunderstanding as i dont wanna face the truth . i dnt wanna face the truth that shes really gettin over me . that she has moved on . i dint wanna hear any of that . i still wanna believe that tasha`s still in love with me and ntg can break us apart . haix . i dnt wanna face reality bcs it sucks . i hate reality . but , sooner or later . i`ll have to talk to her . haix . one thing`s for sure bby . i do love . im not staying with you bcs i sympathise you . thats utterly stupid . its way outta the context of our story . haix . after talking to syamil for about half an hour , tasha suddenly jus walked away . she came back . and i asked syamil to go some where else for awhile . i wanted to have that ' talk ' . i hugged her . yes i did . i wanted to not ever let her go . i wanted to just hold her . forever . . but she suddenly pushed me away and wanted to go hme . so i was like okay . then i went hme too . went to tuition and after that slacked . came hme ard 11.30 ? uhm . stupid kampau come while slacking . we had to split . so yea . came hme perspiring like nabil after his PE . so yea . thats my day ppl . kay . . and RAFIDAH , if ure reading this post , i really meant every word on this post olryte ? tc . bubye . Labels: it hurts |
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