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Wednesday, July 1, 2009
hey yo ppl . today was a sucky day . at sch , talked with her . hmms . i just cant get angry when i look at her . i was fuming with rage but when i looked into her eyes , it all vanished . all that was left was sadness at hw things were going between me and her . i kept looking in her eyes when we talked , i was searching for that spark , that love , haix . but there were`nt any . haix . its alryte . go . trust ure frens . im ntg . it hurts yknow to see 1 year 3 mnths worth of love , happiness , sadness , everything uh just go . gone like the wind . one thing i cant get over for sure will be the memories i had with you . owwwh . the memories . if only i could relieve the moment in palembang with you . if i could only spend time with you like 090808 . if only you could love me like how u did . if only .... haix . no use . im still holding back . bcz i love you ? i dnt knw . seems so hard to move on . everything seems so hard . but when i look at you ure not even sad ? like ure happy . aha . its alryte . im glad to see you happy nat . as long as ure happy bbygerl . haix . i dnt regret anything . seriously . im like so gonna miss you . and tadi i slack at pod . suddenly all the songs about me and tasha sia . no air la . halo laa . when you look me in the eyes laa . broken hearted girl laa . fuck sia . like the whole world know like that . haix . its alryte . i can live with the pain of not seeing you animore , not caring boud you animore , not hugging u animore , not touching your`re hands animore, but i cant live with the pain of our memories together . haiz . i remembered the first tyme i laid eyes on you . owwh . u were the most beatiful person i had seen . the way u move . the way you walk . the way u laughed . the way u sweetly asked my number . i knew you only wanted to make frens . but the instant i saw you , i wanted to be more than frens . i wanted to get to know you . i wanted to love you . i wanted to care for you like ive never done for other girls . i wanted you to love me . i wanted you to care for me like no girl ever did . but one thing was for sure . on that day , went we first laid eyes on each other i nvr thought i wud hurt u . i nvr thought i wud make u cry . i nvr thought i wud do anything to hurt you . ure my soul . the reason i live . the other half of me . oh my god . writing all this things about you , god , i can just cry . but i wont, im strong . well , i hope i am . after u asked my number , we got to know each other better . hah . we were so innocent and dumb . well , at least i was . hah . ive never regretted gettin to know you nurul natasha . its true . haix . after every fight , there`s always smtng in me telling me ' she`ll come back nadhir . she loves you ' . hahh . but after this fight , that voice that keeps giving me hope , is nowhere to be found . bloody hell . MIA at the right time sia . hmm . anws , natasha , having you in my life is one of the greatest thing god could grant me . i remembered in 2006 , i was a fat primary 6 student . all my frens had girlfrens . i dint care uh . but one time , i saw how my fren ____`s girlfren cared for him so much . how much she loved him all that . i was actually jealous . and i wanted a girl like that . i was daydreaming about having a girlfren like that . but whenever i look at my stomach , i know the chance wud nvr come . FAT hope . AHA . but then a few years later , this girl came into my life with a bang ! her name was natasha . haix . im repeating her name so many times . shit . damn it . i love her dnt i ? she still loves me rite ? haix . no she doesnt . nonono . she doesnt . she seems interested in another guy . haix . its olryte . its okay . go love that guy nat . im seriously okay with it . but just learn from the mistakes u did to me and dont do it to guy . promise me that will ya ? i dnt want anibodi to feel wad im feeling now . dejected , disgraced ad so on . but im happy that ure happy . haix . done . enuf said . bye ppl . Labels: learn it . leave it . like it . |
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